This song by The Goo Goo Dolls sums up exactly what I am thinking and feeling right now; so much so that it is uncanny...

And i'd give up forever to touch you
cause i know that you feel me somehow,
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
and i don't want to go home right now
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life
when sooner or later it's over
i just don't wanna miss you tonight

and i don't want the world to see me,
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken,
i just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
or the moments of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies,
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive


and i don't want the world to see me,
cause i don''t think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken,
i just want you to know who I am.


and i don't want the world to see me,
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken,
i just want you to know who I am.
i just want you to know who I am.
i just want you to know who I am.
i just want you to know who I am.

Waiting for the Third Shoe to Drop

They say bad luck always happenes in threes. This is the second consecutive night in which I've had some major unlucky inconvenience happen.

Last night after making a deposit, I forgot to take my ATM card back. Fortunately I was on empty and stopped to get more gas on the way home. I went to go swipe my debit card at the pump, only to notice that it was gone. I booked it home, borrowed my fiance's debit card, and ran back to the ATM, hoping that noone else had been there. No such luck. So I had to again book it home (after getting gas) and call in my card as stolen. Then I had to wait until this morning to request a new one. Five to seven business days, great. Not as bad as the seven to ten that I had feared, though.

Then tonight, as a was chewing the remains of a mostly sucked cough drop, I noticed a little too much crunch. I found the offending forgein object, and it was exactly what I had feared: a piece of tooth. I checked in the mirror and noticed  a big chip from one of the sides of my bottom teeth, all the way down to the dentin. Great. Now I have to call the dentist after I go to my Upton address to check my mail to make sure that my dental insurence card came in. This is just what I need right now, just as I thought I was recovering financially. Hopefully they can just fill it rather than crown it. If they have to crown it, I'm screwed.

So I'll be on guard tomorrow night for not just the other shoe to drop, but the third one. I can't wait.

The New Year Starts Off With an Orgy....

.....for our upstairs neighbors that is. Last night around 12 or 1am, fiance and I were snuggled up in our beds, when we heard the upstairs neighbors' bed shaking and thudding violently. Their bedroom is right above ours, and we frequently hear them going at it. Usually we just giggle, or get mildly irritated if we are woken up by it at 3am, which has happened before. However tonight the bed was really being slammed. So we laughed a little as usual, but then it sounded like their was more than 2 people in the room. Okay... Then we heard one guy "finish," but only some of the noise stopped. Then it sounded like there were multiple people in the room. Then almost as quickly as it started, the thumping stopped, and then we heard a whole bunch of people get up and leave the room.

Awkward.

Are they swingers? I don't know. Do they and their friends just get adventures when they're hammered? Possibly. However one thing is for certain - if I see our upstairs neighbors outside or in the hallway, I don't think I will be able to look at them with a straight face.